I wanted to scream, run, hide. Even then I could see these two were bad for my sanity, but what choice did I have? Somehow, the universe had opened up a huge 'Anna' sized hole, and put me in it, but I didn't know what was going on. I didn't know how to interact, or even know my own schedule. Suppressing my urge to flee, I followed, hoping I could learn what was happening. I quickly found out.
The second one was Katie and to put it nicely, she was a girlish ditz. She spent most of morning classes talking about shopping and fashion and a dozen other subjects that were to me, both alien and boring. The first girl was even worse; Paige had all of Katie's faults, plus she was already showing signs of being boy crazy. Five minutes of their brainless chatter had given me a headache, which was not helped by the fact classes were mind numbingly boring. I had learnt all this stuff years ago, and being 'taught' it again made it feel like my mind was being stuffed with cotton wool. As I sat though history, I prayed it was due to the stress of my situation and that I wasn't starting to become like my 'friends'. Paige seemed to be the one closer to me, Eventually she stopped her giggling session, and asked concerned, "You're not yourself, Anna. Something wrong?"
"Just a headache" I replied, worried what 'yourself' actually was. Class soon ended and I rushed for the toilets, I stared into the mirror, and a stressed looking schoolgirl stared back. I gulped. The clothes felt tight on me, like if I was being squeezed to fit them, as if I was being molded to fit the clothes. I shook my head, trying to clear it. Naturally my friends followed, and mistook my glancing in the mirror for me wanting to freshen up my makeup.
"I've got a spare" Katie said as she handed me something. It was a tube of lip gloss, and without thinking, I applied it onto my lips.
"Thanks" I stammered, unsure.
"What do you think?" Paige asked.
I stared blankly, hoping Katie would help out and neither of them noticed. Thankfully she did. "I think we should do it."
"Do it?" I enquired.
"Cheerleading. Since they're offering it during PE" Paige said, smiling. I wasn't, though it still sounded better than Paige and Katie's mindless conversations which I was certain would happen without something which grabbed their attention. It also meant the part I was dreading the most; the girls' locker room. Even though I was just as physically aa girl as the others, I still felt like an intruder. Plus, they were all younger than I was used to, which meant I felt extremely dirty. I tried to kept my head down, focus on just me, not think about the new uniform that was supplied to us, but I still saw things. Which lead to the most disturbing realization of all; I was no longer attracted towards girls.
"Annie. You're hyperventilating" Katie said as we entered the field. All I wanted to do was flee.
"Don't worry. You'll be a great flyer. You've got this, girl" Paige soothed
