Teasing:Controlling it.
Yukio was conflicted, she had been all day. She had arrived at the party with Zach, and she had given him a little peck, she wasn't sure how she should act around him, part of her thought that she should just break up with him then and there, if she knew she was going to lose control and cheat on him. It might save him some heartbreak. She might have done that too, had she had the guts, but she was scared, she had never been with a boy, she didn't know how to do any of that, it took all she had to try and be as sexy around him as he was expecting her to be. That was becoming an increasing problem, trying to meet the expectations of the people around her. They knew a sexy bitch who wasn't scared of the world and always got what she wanted NO. Matter. What. and who would stomp on those who she felt like stomping on. The only thing that Yukio had in common with that girl was the accent they now shared, a perfect American accent.
And she didn't know, she didn't know when or where she was going to turn back. She knew if she saw Melissa it would happen, though she doubted that would happen at this party. She knew if she saw Derek it might happen. It didn't happen with Zach as they drove to the party, and he had noticed the difference. She felt awkward all the time, and people were noticing. She wanted to change, but she couldn't, she knew she had this other person somewhere in her, but she didn't know how to make her come out. Not that she was sure she wanted that, the other her didn't seem like the best person on earth, but if she could have just a bit of that confidence she felt when she took over, it would be a relief.
At the party she tried to make her come out, she danced with Zach even though she wasn't a dancer, she drank a little, something she would normally only do with her parents at home on holidays, she even kissed Zach a little more. Nothing happened, and she felt more and more embarrassed the more she tried and failed, but also more and more pressure to up the game since people were starting to notice her behavior, and all of the eyes that were watching were a crushing influence.
She made a last ditch attempt, a guy asked her if she wanted to make out, and she said yes.
She didn't feel the yes, but she was trying to act in character, and as she walked with this stranger, with ever step she felt confidence flowing through her, she felt a change over taking her. She felt sexier, she wanted to make out, as they were walking she grabbed his ass, it was her idea, it was fun. It suddenly didn't matter what she was doing as long as she was having fun. They made out for 10 minutes, and then, she got bored and left.
She had had her fun, but she wanted who she came here for, she wanted Derek. Where was he hiding?
It wouldn't be til the next morning she would realize that Evil Yukio hadn't fully taken control yet, she had been doing this on her own. Nor would she fully realize the consequences of her actions.
