Let Karyn have her fun. I, for one, was not going to have to go through all that, let alone the possibilty of losing the rock. It just wasn't worth it. So as all the cheerleaders were going onto the field, I simply snuck out the side door of the gym.
Unfortunately I found myself face to face with Ted Manley. He was sneaking a smoke out in the back of the school. But I found looking at him made me feel awkward again, I looked at my feet as my face went bright crimson ....
"Hey, Jonnie, bunking off Cheerleading? You ok?"
I wanted to say that. I was fine, but all that came out was "umm, ah"'I realized I was staring at him as my nervousness grew, he looked so handsome stood there. My use of the english language seemed to escape me.
He held. Y hand. "Don't be so nervous, I don't bite" He paused. "I've seen how you get around guys, you really are shy aren't you.."
I could feel my face burning, A boy was touching me, not just any boy but. Tim Manly, one of the coolest boys at school. This wasn't right, I'd never had trouble talking to boys, let alone touching them, but just I could feel his hand holding mine, I was shaking, I stared back at my feet, they looked so tiny in my cheerleading trainers, I could feel the breeze on my bare calf.
"Ummm" I struggles, and reclaimed my hard, I'd never felt so weak and nervous before in my life, I was blushing,
My desire to be someone who wasn't nervous talking to women had made me a cheerleader who was nervous around men, not only that but I was nervous because I found men attractive, my wish had made it easier for me to talk to women by changing my desire for women into a desire for men.
