"I promise you, I don't want to hurt Tiffany. I don't want to hurt anyone, but it feels like that's all I've done lately." The pressure was getting to Jon.
He knew he needed to keep his emotions in check, but Karyn was looking at him with concern. She had lived a completely different life because he'd made a selfish wish. Despite that she was still just as kind as ever, willing to hear him out and do what she could.
'I can't keep going on my own like this.' He thought to himself. 'I feel like this guilt is tearing me apart.'
"Talk to me Jon." Karyn said gently to avoid setting him off. Things had taken a turn and she feared the look in his eyes. "Whatever you're going through I'm sure we can work through it together. Your mom, your sister and Tiffany are here for you too."
"What if I did something that isn't so easy to take back? What if I've already hurt people and they don't even know it? I don't know if I can keep talking to everyone like it's no big deal like this." Jon's grip on the stone tightened. If he was calmer he may have noticed it was starting to cut into his hand.
'This isn't good. What have I gotten myself into?' Karyn kept a calm outward appearance, but she wasn't sure what to say or do.
Though she wondered why he had chosen to open up to her like this she could see his reasons. He didn't want to worry his family or Tiffany, but must have wanted someone close enough he felt safe with to bare his soul. Someone mature like his girlfriend's mother who could give an experienced insight without the cold indifference of a stranger must be the reason.
"Jon, I've made my share of mistakes. I'm not proud of it, but there are people I've hurt. People I've used and abandoned. You have to face yourself, look inside and choose to improve. The fact you feel guilty enough to ask for my help means you want to improve, right?" Karyn spoke from the heart. If this boy needed a shoulder to cry on she'd play therapist and see him through this mess.
Jon took a deep breath. He had come to a decision. He was prepared for the consequences, but he needed his friend back. Even if she started to hate him he needed Karyn.
"I wish you were aware of my family swapping wish and how you've been changing because of it."
He felt the stone warm in his hand as he prepared for Karyn's reaction.
