This was it. Karyn decided to come clean. "Please don't hate me. I... I kinda get turned on by that kind of thing too. This change seemed like a safe way to test the waters." She sighed. "I guess I was wrong about it being safe. I'm sorry. I just wanted to share it with you."
Jon considered this for a moment. "Right now, the way you made me, I want to share it with you too. But I know it's just temporary. And.. I'm kind of scared about what will happen when this wears off... in less than 20 minutes now."
"Karyn started at this. "Why are you scared of changing back?"
"Changing back will be just as big a change in me as it was to begin with... but this time I know in advance what's coming! It's like... I dunno, It's like a little death in who I am. Before, I didn't have any warning, and I didn't have to worry about what was coming. Now I do, and that's scary."
Karyn was impressed. "Jon, that was deep."
Jon put his hands up in the air, making quote signs with his fingers. "I'm like an ogre; I have many layers."
Karyn giggled. She'd seen that movie too. In fact, she'd seen it with Jon and both their families. It had been a fun night out.
"I'm also afraid that once I'm no longer a TV, or a CD, or whatever, that I'm going to revert to being... a bit of a homophobe. I lied before. I can admit it to you now. Have you ever seen the movie Boys Don't Cry?
Karyn shook her head. "Never heard of it."
"I heard about it but I haven't seen it either. The old me would never have been caught dead going to see that kind of movie. It's about homophobes who meet a TG person and how they get mad when they discover the truth. Very mad. Homicidal. And it's a true documentary."
Karyn now saw what he was driving at, and blanched. "Oh no..."
Jon looked her straight in the eye. "I like you too much Karyn, but I'm afraid that I won't like you anymore when this wears off. I don't think I'd actually kill you or even hurt you at all. Physically at least. But I'm afraid our friendship would be over, with me back to the way I was, and knowing what I now know about you, and remembering what you did to me. Karyn... I don't want to lose you."
Karyn was already way ahead of Jon at this point. She twisted around and looked back at the box on her bed. "We have to use the Rock again." Her voice came out as a whisper.
